Those Sleepless Nights' thoughts.

Don't you always hate it when you have those sleepless night ?  Those action of rolling on the bed, trying to get up and go to the toilet, just to lie to yourself that you just opened your eyes for a moment and heading back to sleep soon.   Well, its not the case.  

Why are there those nights that you cant even have a wink of sleep? 3 reasons.
1. You woke too late and trying to sleep early
2. You have something in mind that you dont even have a clue about.
3. You're troubling over something.

Well, apparently, all 3 reasons had been my causes for those sleepless night in the past.

We all have something to trouble about. And its just so annoying to be unable to sleep because of that.

I often ask myself this, what should i do?

Honestly, i spent most of my sleepless night trying to think of solutions.  Which only a few work.

While sometimes, i actually look back at the past, telling me how far i have came, how much things i have sacrificed, and those stuffs that i have regretted giving up.

I would say, the stuffs that i have regretted giving up is the most troubling ones.  Some people would ask me, do i regret my action to give up a particular stuffs.   

I lied to myself and them, and said no. I dont even regret it because I gave up to search for and chase after  better dreams.

But as time goes by, it's definitely disheartening to look back at the past, those moment of the stuffs that you have given up on.  It just suck isn't it.  And by then, when you want that back, its too late.  You have given up all of it, getting it back is hard.  Even if you're successful in getting it back, are you sure you will be happy ?  Are you sure you won't have the same feelings as before, which may result you to give up once again?  Look, its just a never ending cycle. 

The solution? Its either you give up completely and dont allow your heart and mind to shake because of those moments you had OR you dont give up in the first place.

Apparently, most of us are left with only the first solution.  Well it isnt bad either.

The second solution will not guarantee you to be happy and comfortable in that situation before you give up.  It's probably a never ending cycle unless you or the other parties have a different perceptions. 

Would you want that to be the result? Yes, you have a chance to be alright in that situation again, but what are the amount of chances in attaining a success?

Personally, i would choose to take the 1st solution. I would rather give up completely and have no regrets.  Better said than done.  It's never that easy. It takes time, effort and the correct mindset.  But this will definitely guarantee you, a better perspective of the world and your surroundings. 

So what would you choose? 

 A better perspective of the world and the surrounding OR getting stuck in that hole of despair which has minimal chances of getting out?