When people doesn't seem to give their best.

Don't you hate it when people doesn't give their best?! 

Have it ever occur to you that, everyone would just leave you in the lurch?

It seems like you cared too much, putting in too much effort, but appreciation cannot be measured just by the amount of times people appreciate you through their use of word "Appreciate"

Sometimes, you don't even get to hear people saying "I appreciate that effort".

It's just show how fuck up the society is nowadays.

In turn, people just gonna talk about you behind your back and cursing and swearing you. It's just so, unnecessary. 

Remember, it doesn't just take your mouth and the word "appreciate" to appreciate someone. It's is the act of showing appreciation

And apparently, it sucks so much when people DON'T MAKE AN EFFORT. 

Put yourself into a situation whereby you're all alone handling this particular project and yet, some people just belittle you. It's like who are you to even fucking judge. If you think, you are better, fuck it. Just go and handle it yourself. 

I really hate it so much when people think it's so simple. IT'S NOT SO SIMPLE.

Do you all really think it takes a night to plan and execute events? And the event just go successfully?  Dream on, unless you are the sole organiser and sole audience. Then you can jolly well organised one and fuck yourself in your own fucking pool.

It takes multiple meetings, discussions, time and effort to make something work. 

And for a long term project, the time and effort is immeasurable. 

7 things I am afraid of during Childhood (and now)

Okay, so i haven't been posting stuffs recently on this space and it's kinda sad to leave it dangling like this. So i thought why not do a post that relates to childhood. I often get people saying how great their childhood has been. As much as childhood is being concerned, i have very minimal amount of memories about it. I have no idea why too. 

Fear is something that exist in our heart and mind today. But our fear nowadays are more complicated and realistic than what we experienced during the first few years of our life.

Our current fears range from failing a test to even things like our smartphone exploding in the middle of charging (Yes, sometimes i really hope it doesn't when i'm talking on the phone).

So here goes my 7 childhood fears...

1. Darkness

Firstly, this is something that most of us are scared of during our early days. We are afraid of the dark because we thought and/or imagined that there are creatures crawling around in the dark. And sometimes, we even imagine that these 'creatures' crawled onto our bed and try to devour us alive. (ain't gonna happen anyway).

I slept with my study light on in the past.

Current Status: Overcame

2. Height

I have a guess that everyone is afraid of this.

Height is indeed something that even an adult should be afraid of. Don't even mention a child. When I was a child, my balls wasn't as big as currently. Therefore, I would refuse to even get near the window. Okay, honestly speaking, my previous house was only at the 3rd floor. It wasn't that high though. But nonetheless, imagine falling down from the enormous height. I'm speechless. 

Status: Overcame

3. Megastructures

The first thing that comes to your mind when megastructures is mentioned would be a ship or even an aircraft. Have you ever wonder how small you will be like when compared to those structures? 

It's as if that those structures can devour you alive! The thought of those megastructures can make me pee in my pants in the past!

Status: Overcame

4. Sunflower

Oh my goodness. You will have a hard time believing that I actually fear for sunflower!? It's like a beautiful thing yet I'm so afraid of it in the past.

I could even remember that my impression of sunflowers is that it's monstrous. I was so scared in the past that I will 'siam' as much as possible. But now, I see beauty in it. 

Status: Overcame

5. Water

Seriously, water?! Hahah, this is really unbelievable. We are in touch with water 24/7 and having 70% of our body filled with water, and yet, I'm afraid of water in the past. It's sounds so nonsensical to me now. 

Let me rephrase, a POOL of water. As in the swimming pool kind. hahaha. 

This fear wasn't a natural occurrence but actually a 'man-made' fear. You must be confused. I didn't have this fear until I was about 7/8 years old? I was going through swimming classes every saturday at Tampines Swimming Complex. And apparently, this coach of mine forcefully pushed my entire body into the water and let me come up only after 1 minute. I swear I almost drowned. 

It was a frightening event and ever since then I didn't get near a swimming pool until I was in Secondary 1, which I have swimming classes by the school. 

Status: Overcame

6. Horror Movies

Tell me, do you cuddle yourself in the blanket on your bed after watching the entire horror film at midnight?! 

Yup precisely, it still make my hair stands when mentioning about horror movies. Sometimes, I still use my sofa cushion to avoid any eye contact with the TV. 

Status: Partially Overcome

7. Durians

Okay, this is my worst fear ever. 

The smell... Damn it already set me 1 mile away from it. 

I wonder how i survived breathing those smells. 

Status: Still Pending (I just got my 1st bite months back then)

9 Reasons that cause people to explode

These reasons are based on my experiences. There are other reasons out there that varies from person to person and my reasons may not apply to you.

Oh well, guess what. I just exploded. Those feelings, no matter how much you try to mask it, always burst when you least expected it. You have never thought that even the slightest thing will cause you to explode. But, that's what happened.

9 Types of Reasons that cause you to explode

1. Hidden Feelings
First and foremost, there must be a container of fuel to ignite a fire with a spark. Of course, this 'fuel' is the feelings we intend to hide from others.  All of us have feelings, and I can relatively estimate that we hide 8/10 of our feelings from others.

Hidden feelings can include frustrations, love life, and even adapting to some environment. These environments may not be new and it could be somewhat familiar to you, but it just doesn't click with you.

So hidden feelings are the first thing that put your mind to a somewhat insecure situation.

2. No One to talk to
Yes, hidden feelings are to be hidden. But don't you hate it, at some point in time, that you really wish to talk to someone about it and there's no one you can trust to tell about it?

Yeah, I understand that. Most of us underwent through it. But somehow, a number of us managed to find someone to speak about it. It like a burden of their chest and back. It must be a great feeling.

So what about the rest of us? We don't just only continue hiding and masking their feelings. In fact, we end up hiding one more fact.  Trying to tell ourselves that someone cares about us and will realise how fragile we are. Unfortunately, no one came to our rescue.  That hidden fact is that there are not a single soul whom we trust.

3. Frustration
After lying to ourselves that someone trustable will be here soon, and realising that there's no hope and high expectations anymore, we fall into the state of frustration.

We try to figure out what are the reasons that no one whom we can trust can offer us a hand. We tried to figure out and nothing came out from our mind. NOTHING.

Perhaps, sometimes there are stupid assumptions. Like for example, this person actually don't give a damn about me.

4. Stress
Meet our great and best friend in our life, his name is stress. This stress cause you to have pimple outbreaks etc.

But don't you hate it so much that when you're stress, even the slightest thing annoys you? For instance, a bloody tissue paper that got blown by the wind.

Yup, you know that feeling. You feel like grabbing that tissue paper and throw it down the building.  #nokillerlitterplease.

5. Repetition of the Radio
Yup, it seems that your 'radio' is on a replay mode. Perhaps you might wanna do something about it.

Don't you get so ANNOYED when people just keep harping it non stop? They repeat it again and again that you feel like a little child?

Its so annoying. Why repeat again and again. Stop talking about it when its already in the past.

It called PAST for a reason.  *change to pause*

6. People who purposely try to agitate you
Yup, this people are the most evil kind of bastard and bitches.  They tries to agitate you and when you finally exploded, its your fucking fault.

They come up with all sort of words and sarcasm to try to pull you down.

Tolerance level needed: GOD level
Percentage of population exploded: 98.0%

7. The MotherFucking Weather
Currently is around 27 Deg Cel at night. But fuck, its like god damn 34 Deg Cel in the day. I swear it feel like a sauna.

Are you trying to get down to work? Forget it, this weather is a killer. Even the slightest move you take makes you explode.

8. Cranky Mode
Imagine this, you just woke up and feeling so cranky. I swear that the worst feeling you ever have in your entire life. You wish you can sleep more, but its time you should get up and prepare for whatever that is ahead.

And then, you're so cranky that even the moving ants make you explode.
(Then the entire world will explode too)

9. All of the Above
Mix everything stated above and you'll get the damn big bang of the universe.

Time-less Friends

Have you ever been in a situation whereby you could easily make time for a friend of yours? 

Let's just keep it realistic. You treat this friend like someone you can confide in, someone you can trust, and someone whom you thought he/she will return whatever you gave.

Yes, you could easily make time for him/her. But the question is, will he be able to make time for you, in a very short notice.

There are 3 kind of people when it comes to time. 

The first kind is one who can make time for anyone in a very short notice. 

He/she seems to be VERY free.

The second kind is one who is always busy when you contact them.

It seems like they vanished into thin air till they are uncontactable.

The last one is the one who respond to you and told you how busy they are and so on.

And then they somewhat came up with an excuse to reject you.

And somehow, you see him/her on the street with friends, shopping etc.

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The third kind of people is the most detestable one and by far, the worst friends i have ever had.

Let not go into detail who he/she is. (There's too many for me to list out anyway!)

But don't you feel so cheated? Perhaps that scenario seems too unjust to that person. 

But how about giving him/her an advance notice? 1 week? 2 weeks? Or even 1 months?

But no matter what, even if you give a fucking 1 month notice, they will just tell you they are not sure whether if they're busy or not.

I mean, it doesn't hurt to reserve a date for someone that he/she is close to? Does it?

And then the worst part, when the date get nearer and you manage to ask him/her about it. 

Guess what, that reply will make you go crazy. 

"Huh. Since when you told me ah?"

"You got tell me beforehand meh?"

"I having dinner with someone already!"

Really is 'Act Blur, Live Longer'

Whatever the reply is, it's just going to make me very fumed.

Trust me, I can't take it when people are just so irresponsible, act blur, and tries to shake me off.

But hey, if you're trying to shake me off, why not do it the hard way?

Why must you take a big detour, telling me that you need to check your availability when the date get nearer and even get someone to eat dinner with (god knows whether if that's true anyway?)

If you hate or dislike to make time for me, simply tell me in the face. I really hate it when people come up with all sort of excuses to shake people off. The more excuses you try to come up with it, I get more fumed about it.

It really funny how the one person that you're willing to take bullet for, tends to be the one who pull the trigger.

To the friends who are always 'time-less':

I don't care whether if you going to make time for me or not. But trust me, you have already LOST my trust in you, managing your own time, your friends and availability. It has come to this situation that i have to pity you about the way you planned your time to be.

Coming up with all sort of excuses just to shake me off, seems to be the most despicable actions I have ever seen and it could be the most despicable actions that you ever did in your life.

Simply amazing. I couldn't agree further.

You could easily make time for your friends, but you couldn't make time for someone who trusted you, confided in you and who always make time for you?

It seems to imply that you have already dislike the time i made for you way before this happen.

You know who you are. 

Flirters

Before I begin on this post (very offensive), I would like to clarify the meaning of the word 'flirt'. It has become a norm that everyone think people who talks to the opposite gender is consider a flirt. 

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¹flirt

verb \ˈflərt\

: to behave in a way that shows a sexual attraction for someone but is not meant to be taken seriously

: to think about something or become involved in something in a way that is usually not very serious

: to come close to reaching or experiencing something

--

I often get judged by people and sometimes, or even most of the time, got people who referred me as a flirt. Probably there are always picture of me and girls on my instagram. I can tell you, they're just friends of mine, who happened to be girls, that made an impact in my social circle. 

So does that mean that any guy with an instagram profile that is filled with girls and the user picture is a flirt? There's 50% chance he is. It's either yes or no. 

For those of you who know me well enough, I strike conversation with girls is to understand them more and expand my social circle. I don't do it just to do any pick up or whatsoever. But as for those who want to judge me based on my instagram, you don't know me well enough. Perhaps you need to speak to me more often. :)

If you have read the definition above clearly, the definition highlighted something that is pretty obvious, which is not serious while expressing verbally or even in terms of behaviour.

So let me ask you, which kind of guy is the worst shit ever?
1. A guy who is single and flirts
2. A guy who is attached and flirts

Of course, you will choose the 2nd guy. Those are the kind of guys that hurt the girls big time. Seriously, who died and made this kind of guy KING?!

Often, when I see people flirts when they are attached, it just make me feel so disgusted. 

You have a girlfriend, and you are so fucking desperate for fuck?

Why the heck did you even get into a relationship then?

Not trying to contradict myself yet, but it appears that being single seems to be the best situation to flirt all you want before getting into a relationship. BUT NO, that's not the main point.

Tell me, who the fuck upload an intimate photo of him and a girl on the instagram?!

And not to mention, the girl is not even his girlfriend.

Hey, I do understand that you're attached, but please, fucking respect your girlfriend.

Perhaps you're born like this to flirt, but don't fucking hurt your girl because of flirting.

It just make you a bastard, and a flirt.

You get a fucking bad reputation, and maybe even worse off like a playboy.

You may be good looking, you may have girls behind chasing after you. 

But grow up. You will never be able to sustain long in a relationship.

How do i know that? Because all your previous relationship appears to be in the same situation as i describe. You flirt here and goes back to her like an obedient puppy.

Seriously, i don't even respect a single shit about you.

If its not her whom I care about, you're already worse than a shit without anyone hinting to you.

So grow up and stop flirting before you become the World's Greatest Flirt. 

Untitled.

Since it's Labour Day (yes, a public holiday much love for it) tomorrow, I'm still thinking about how to spend my time. Weeks ago, I planned for a photoshoot for tomorrow, but apparently, studies was fucking messed up that my friend couldn't join me.  Nah, I'm not going to blame her or any sort. (Yes it's a girl!!) There's plenty more chances for us to go for a photoshoot but not any time soon.

Rest assure, I don't plan something without a backup plan.

Yes, some of you may have already expect this, but for those who doesn't, I'm meeting Ben tomorrow for a photoshoot recce.

The theme of the photoshoot is probably music themed and we will be getting a group of people to act as a band. So these photos that are taken will be sort of like the music album artwork and their solo biography.

Example: 

(Via http://dalestarosa.blogspot.sg)

So i thought that why make it more interesting and have a little good filter over it. I decided to make the photoshoot a <VINTAGE MUSIC THEMED PHOTOSHOOT>
I went over to google and tried to get some inspiration of what and how i wanted it to be like.

(Via http://hanifahaddar.tumblr.com)

(Via http://www.bedazzlesafterdark.com/2012/03/fashion-editorial-olivia-palermo-model.html)

(Via http://speckyboy.com/2013/01/28/50-fantastic-photo-effect-tutorials-with-photoshop/)

One of the picture that caught my attention was this. Not because of the kiss, but because of the great toned and filtered photograph and its background. 

(Via http://www.picturesbymom.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/08/cblurweddingstudio.com__MG_9960-600x399.jpg)

I thought for a while. And maybe I should look at my countless of files to get some more inspirations.

Now, i got some great inspiration and ideas on the back of my mind. I can't wait for the photoshoot recce tomorrow and its going to be as wonderful as it is. 

Till then! :)

10 Types of Worst Friend Ever

Just a personal opinion of the 'friends' I have met throughout my secondary school and poly life.

Not meant to offend anyone, but if you know which kind of friends you are, time for some reflection.

1) 'Friends' who backstabbed you

I have been through this kind of things countless of times. Definitely more than the amount that i can count with my fingers. 

"Hey bro, I support you till the end" 

Yes, they told you this. But guess what, the moment you turned, you have no idea whether they are smiling at you. An evil smile. 

Then you heard from your friends that this 'brother' of yours has been speaking behind your back. 

"This bastard, he really think that i support him? Fat hope. He's a fucking loser." 

He act like your FRIEND, but in fact, he isn't. You treated him as a friend, but in fact, he is a 'FRENEMY'. 

2) 'Friends' who put aeroplane

Yes, we often have friends who ask you out at times. Or rather, we 'booked' them in advance. Probably 1 weeks. One example of what i experienced. I booked 1 month in advance. If you were in that situation, do you expect your friends to check their schedule and get back to you? 

Oh yes, i did expect that. Replies i got was "yes i can", "i think i can" , "steady la" etc.

Never trust this bunch of people who put aeroplanes no matter in what kind of situation. 

Because even if you remind them 1 week before the 'booking', they will tell you "got ah?" , 

"since when you ask sia?" "never say earlier!" etc.

This type of friends are definitely not your TRUE FRIEND.

3) 'Friends' who will pay you back next time and doesn't

I haven't actually experience this before, not because i don't lend people money. But most friends that i lent money to are people who trust.

But admit it guys, we often saw people sharing posts and tweets on Facebook and twitter about this guy or girl owing money for 1 year plus already and yet to pay back.

Well, there are two sides to the story. We won't judge on that. But don't you hate it when people won't pay you back even if they said they will back then? 

4) 'Friends' that don't have time for you...

Friends that don't have time for you but has time for their classmates. Wow. Simply unbelievable. I've been through this for numerous of times, and it just sucks so much. 

A - "Hey dude, any free time for lunch this few days?" 

B - "Hey there, so sorry i don't have time this few days. I need to rush my projects"

And then for the rest of the days, you walked past the canteen and you saw him with his bunch of ladies and gentlemen having lunch together. Instant feeling of 'betrayal'.

5) 'Friends' who are only willing to accompany you when their partners are away.

It's the fact somehow. We rarely get to see our friends when they are in a romantic relationship. I'm not trying to say that get out of that relationship and spend more time with me. I would say, go for a balanced relationship between your partner and your friends.

But it seems really bastard when this friend of yours decide to accompany you ONLY when his/her partner is away. It seems like he/she only make time for his/her partner.

6) The friend who swears she won’t tell anyone that huge secret you just accidentally told her...

Admit it, we always have this friend in our life. And the next day, the whole school knows about it. And this huge secret that you told her usually is this small crush that you have. 

Seems like you gonna have a little bit of awkward moment with that crush of yours.

7) The friends who constantly brag about every single thing.

"Hey, this is my new phone!"

"WOW. I had starbucks today!"

"I have this friend of mine who treated me to a great dinner!"

Enough said. You don't seems like you care.  Ear plug please.

8) The friends that take 1 full day or more to reply you...

I really hate this so much. It can literally burn 1000 calories out of my daily calories intake just to wait for the reply. 

It seems impossible to make plans with him/her. And when you finally do, he/she inevitably cancel it or reschedule it with some lousy excuses.

9) The friends that insist on having this and that

Trust me. When we get into big group or cliques, there are bound to have conflict. There will be one friend who wants to eat Mac, then the other one wants KFC, then there's a friend who want to eat healthily like salad.

Then this friend of yours insist on eating mac and everyone follow suits. It seems everyone is giving in every time. 

10) The friends that will add a little bit of sarcasm to every sentence they make...

"Hey, you look good, for someone like your size."

We really hate this kind of people. I know there are times that we can be really comfortable with each other like "Hey you fucker. ". Of course we know it's a damn joke.

But hey, there isn't any need for that sarcasm. And that isn't funny at all.

Perhaps we should make a comment to him/her like 

"Hey, you seemed busy with everything. Busy fucking your bloody mind too?"

Nah, I doubt we want to be like him/her either. Sucks to be like him/her anyway.

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so.. if you ever have this kind of friends, I would suggest DUMP them seriously. They are like toxic to you. Ready to fuck your mind, torture you mentally. 

Craziest Friday Night Ever

That amount of hype and wow factor was completely fascinating. 

This year's Honours Day was completely unbelievable. 

As one of the guests being invited to Greendale 8th Honours Day, the fact that Greendale is already celebrating their 8th Honours Day kind of shook me. I could still remember vividly that in 2009, I was part of the 'event backbone' of the 3rd Honours Day. 

Time really past very quickly. It's 2014 and Greendale Honours Day has entered its 8th installment.

To me, it's still quite shocking. But nevertheless, as an alumni, I'm really glad that Greendale has grew so much from Nurturing Talents, Developing Character to Inspiring Lives.

One thing that I'm proud of being an Alumni is that we are able to nurture talents in the alma mater.

It's not easy that Greendale managed this far. This 8 to 9 years has been a long one, especially for those teachers who have stayed throughout since the first day Greendale was set up.

(With Mr Chen PK, co-form of my sec4 class)

(Uhh, a complete family photo? This two couple teachers must be glad that they have 4 adopted same-age kids!)

(Mr Syed is one of the most inspiring teacher i ever met. Having him was the turning point for my SS. From F9 to A1! An inspiring teacher indeed!)

Yes you won't believe this. Greendale has done it again. In 2012, they had the Greendale SHINES which was organised to appreciate what the students have done and contributed to the CCAs. It was held at the RUPEE room then. (clarkequay).

This year, they had a disco right in the Multi Purpose Hall (MPH). I must agree that the MPH is really multi purpose. From events to a disco. Completely wow. 

I mean WHICH SCHOOL CAN HAVE A DISCO IN THEIR SCHOOL COMPOUND?!

(With Jonas and Changzhi in the wow. 'disco' room)

I'm proud to be part of Greendale. Anyway, share a photo on Instagram that depicts your life in Greendale, hashtag #spreadthegreendalejoy and mention @greendale_alumni ! Perhaps you might be featured or even win a prize ! :)

Leaders are made, not born.

CAUTION: RISK OF GETTING A BAD IMPRESSION OF ME.

Before I begin, I will like to say that it took me a lot of courage to come up with this post, especially when i know that if i ever come up with a post that is kind of showing off to others, some haters will just find fault with me. 

Nonetheless, I decided to do up this post to prove that I'm not someone who shows off but someone who is speaking from real experience from how I was just a typical normal student to a leader that I am now.

"Leaders are made, not born."

As quoted, everyone is not born to be a leader. You don't see a newborn baby shouting "charge!" at the first minute right? Everyone can be a leader, it's just whether there is any right opportunities and the suitable environment for one to develop their leadership skills.

There are different kind of leaders. I must admit that I met different kind of leaders but not all.

There are good ones that are willing to help you when you face trouble as a leader. Then there are those not so good ones that throw you with shitty work that you have to do no matter what.

Nonetheless, be prepared to face different kind of leaders and learn from experience.

I was just a normal typical secondary student that was enjoying life in school. I wasn't good in studies either. I must admit that i got into troubles before such as getting into fights in school. HAHAHA it's guys nature to get into violence.

The key to successful leadership today is influence, not authority —Kenneth Blanchard

1) Greendale Broadcasting Corporation - Chairperson

But the question that changes everything was...

"I think you suit the criteria to be the chairperson of the CCA. Do you want to consider it?"

This question was asked by my CCA teacher, Ms Lee.

I must say that I wasn't very sure of what to do at that point of time. I know I was god damn happy that I suit the criteria and was approached by the teacher. It was like my wish to like control the whole CCA as and when I like.  At that point of time, i never thought that leadership was such a never ending experience.  I thought it's like a great chance to be part of planning logistics, manpower etc. I gladly took up the offer, not knowing of the dangers and risks ahead of me.

As I was invested as the Chairperson of my CCA, I felt a sense of pride. It was something i never experience before. Even my mum don't even know that I'm being invested as the Chairperson of my CCA.  HAHAHA.

I thought being the chairperson of the CCA is an easy task. It turns out not to be it.

For the first few months, I struggled to meet the expectations of the others. 

One thing that I never wanted to mention again was the conflict between me and my Vice Chairperson. There was a slight misunderstanding between him and the teacher, thus resulting in the conflict. 

Honestly speaking, I must admit that at that point of time, it was really hard to cope with that stress and conflict. I didn't have any idea what to do or even a solution to reduce the conflict. 

The only thing we know is that we use our voices to settle it. The one who is louder wins.

Even the talks between the both of us was probably meant to end in worsen conflict.

At that point of time, I really wish I have never accepted that offer. But it was too late anyway.

Because of this conflict and tremendous stress, my health declined. Ultimately, I fall. 

I was in the hospital, talking to my mum about how I feel. That moment was probably the only time that I was able to vomit everything out of my heart and chest. I felt such a great relief.

It was the best moment yet.

As I recovered from that panic attack, I tried my best to avoid any further conflicts with him but at the same time maintain the working relationship with him. I consulted many of my seniors and friends. I even broke down in front of my coach in the Leadership Challenge Camp. That was the time where i really felt so relieved. Tonnes of advices and skills was taught and passed down from my coach to me.  After the camp, I realised that

Leadership is not just a position, it's about the experience, strategy, mindset, maturity, responsibility and commitment of one. 

It took me many months to get over the conflict, accept the aftermath and move on with the amount of time before i stepped down.

(Pic: Group shot with the Seniors, Principal, Vice Principal and Ex Vice Principal in Greendale Honours Day 2011)

My definition of leadership is this: We are never a leader when success is all about us growing and learning new things. We are a leader only when we pass down the stuffs we learnt and help to grow others. 

After what it seems to be the first and most terrifying incident of my leadership journey, I was faced with a bigger challenge.  Managing a CCA with more than 120 members when Infocomm and GBC merged as one.  It was stressful. But it was worth it. 

This amount of members may be too much, but I was ready to face the challenge. 

I am not alone. Together with Ben, Xavier and a few other leaders in Infocomm, we managed to plan and organised a camp and also a games day kind of thing.

(Pic: GBC Games Day in 2012)

(Pic: 'Event Backbone' of Greendale Honours Day in 2012)

All in all, the leadership journey as the Chairperson of Greendale Broadcasting Corporation (GBC) was indeed a great experience. It was something that was unfamiliar to me at first. Throughout my term of office, I learnt many things from various people. For example, I have learnt many things from Xavier in that short period of time. His leadership was way better than me. I must say there are a lot of things that I have yet to learn at that point of time. Other include management of crisis, creation of teamwork, enhance the flow of operations as well as motivating people to do their best in whatever they could.

The position and the badges I received is only the 1st stage of the Leadership model. What matter most is when people knows how good you are in term of leadership that they are willing to trust you with whatever they can in order to make an event or project successful.

2) Greendale Broadcasting Corporation - Senior Advisory Board (SAB) - Director

As the ex-chairperson of GBC, one thing I wasn't able to let go was the presidency selection of the CCA. Together with Ben and Xavier, we managed to come up with a board named Senior Advisory Board (SAB) to provide advice especially in terms of management. The SAB is more focused on the annual presidency selection. 

(Pics: SAB involvement in Greendale CCA fair 2013)

(Pic: Full attendance of SAB during Chinese New Year Celebration 2013)

Although there were little of appearance, there are times where we go back to the CCA to observe how it is being run. For example, I just came back from the full dress rehearsal for honours day on Friday and I must say I have observed quite a lot from the way the CCA works as well as their event management.

Being in this board really help to train myself to be better in observing how people does their work and provide feedbacks, advices when deemed necessary. It's not about the technical skills anymore. I trust my juniors that they can pass down these skills to the next batches. But one thing that is difficult to grab hold of it is the management skills. I'm not saying I don't trust my juniors in managing the whole team. I must admit that at this age, we tend to see things so easily, thinking that a problem can be solved so easily. I've been through it and I know it the best. 

My aim is to eradicate that thinking by providing the best advices I can give through observations. That is what I should do, as a Senior Advisor. 

Leadership and learning are indispensable to each other. —John F. Kennedy

A little update to spice up my life

I swear upon my grave that this holiday is the busiest holiday that i ever had in my entire life.

Besides the temporary accounts assistant job that ended two days ago, I have a lot of things to settle.

1) Greendale Sec. 8th Honours Day 2014

Yup, it's the busiest period for the staffs and students in Greendale again.

This year, Greendale Sec. Honours Day is back into its 8th year.

I can't believe how fast time has flew really.

I could still remember vividly that I went back to Greendale to receive my award last year. 

Some photos below, including our then 'Oscars' Selfie'. Hahah

 I wish time didn't flew that fast. This year, I won't be getting anymore awards anymore. 

BUT. I was pretty glad that I did managed to be part of the Honours Day last year as a award recipient. For the past few honours day, I've been helping out as a "background worker". This just means I'm part of the event backbone. To provide AV support and stuffs.

This year is slightly different. I just came back from the first Full dress rehearsal today and I'm pretty sure that I have to be there for the next one too. This time round, I'm no longer a "background worker" anymore. I'm more of towards providing feedbacks and advices to those who are in charge and part of the event backbone. As a senior advisor to my CCA, I would say it's my job to teach what i couldn't and pass down the management / leadership skills through advices which i couldn't did well as before.

All in all, I'm pretty sure that this year Honours' Day will be great and interesting. Especially since I got some spoilers here and there. HAHAHA. 

Another good thing is that i received the invitation to join this year honours day as well. Well.. I'll be representing the alumni as the vice president this time round rather than an event backbone or award recipient. Thanks for the invitation, Greendale!

2) Greendale Alumni

I believe some of you have heard about the Greendale Alumni Membership Card. It's currently an ongoing project and I really can't reveal a lot of information. But i can say that this project was really the one that last the longest planning ever. I took about half a year to plan before executing the collection procedures and so on...

Right now, the card is like currently in printing. So I'm pretty glad everything has been quite smooth up till now. Hopefully there isn't any errors in the printing when i collect it next week or something.

HOPEFULLY.

I think that's about it for these few days. Press on guys if you are suffering from the busiest days of your entire life!

Return, Love.

Often, people around me get attached like so easily. I have no idea whether they really like their the other half or not. But deep down in my heart, I hope they really do.

Sometimes, i asked myself this. 

"When is my the other half appearing?"

The most common answer that i get was

"Nature will take its own course"

Or maybe even like

"When it meant to be, it will be."

There are times i questioned people, if nature take its own course, does it mean that there is a chance that people are likely to not get attached and married?

So are we going to wait until the other half appear?  No one can be sure that that person is the right half for you. Not even you can be ascertain at the first moment.

Does this mean that when the other half doesn't appear out of nowhere in future, it probably means that in this life, you destined to be single?

So imagine, this happens to everyone in the entire world.

Imagine everyone is waiting for that the other half to appear out of nowhere.

Well this probably means that it's the end for humanity.

There's no effort being laid. There's a goal, but there's no solution to get to the goal.

Waiting doesn't seems to be a solution. Searching for the right one seems to be a much appropriate reason than waiting. At least you're finding someone that you will love for the rest of your life.

Miracles doesn't happen that easily. Yes, i got to say patience is a must for miracles to happen. But if that miracle is something that is within our limits, why not put in the effort to reach it?

Other questions that people ask me are 

"How many previous relationships you have before?" or even like "When was your last relationship?"

Honestly speaking, i don't even want to care because it doesn't matter as to the right half that i'm searching for?

It's not like me having 3 relationships before is linked to how i'm searching for the right half.

These are just some statistics.

What matters most is the lessons I learnt from the past relationships and how to better handle it in the next relationship. (hopefully, it doesn't happen)

As to the first question that i mentioned in this blog post, I'm really glad that the one i'm searching for is someone that is somewhere nearby me. It just take god knows how many years for me to realise that she have been beside me, just because we doesn't talk.

Sometimes, the right half could be someone just beside you. You never know.

And for those who are asking me whether if i'm attached, I can tell you, no I'm not.

Speaking from my heart, I am not ready yet. I'm not ready to face the challenges posed by being in a relationship.

Yes, i see people being so happy in a relationship. I want to know how do they managed to be so happy. But even the best relationship has its own problems. The solution depends on how we tackle them.  It's not just one person but the both parties in the relationship.

It takes two persons to be in a relationship. Likewise, it takes two persons to face the challenge of a relationship.

I'm not ready. I'm not ready to face those challenges. I have not find a way to tackle those challenges. 

But that doesn't mean I'm not ready for a relationship.

Like i said above. 

"It takes two persons to face the challenges of a relationship."

The thing is that, I can never tackle those problems alone. I need another half and she must be the right half.

We can always get into a relationship easily, but it's whether we know if the other half is right one or the, unfortunately, wrong one.

Overly Attachment

Have you ever get too overly attached emotionally, mentally and/or physically to someone? If you haven't, i'm seriously doubting whether if you're human.

Don't you hate it when someone or you started the conversation and it just takes a few hours or even hours to become so overly attached to the other party that you wish to chat and talk with them forever ?

I haven't start a conversation willingly with someone for some time. Until recently, i have no idea why, but i just picked up my phone and started texting people. Well, its human nature to get bored though. And when we get bored, its either we sleep or we just find someone to talk to. And then here comes the important part apart from getting overly attached.

Overly attached is one thing, another thing is whether the other party has the time and the willingness to talk to you.

We get bored when we don't chat and talk to others. But we get bored when people starts to go on chatting and chatting over the same thing too. (This is how human can be so contradicting!)

Then it comes to a point whereby the other party get so bored with talking to you because you are just way too boring.

Seriously, I just hate being so overly attached with someone. It's not an issue whether if i trust them or not, it's an issue when i don't get to talk to someone and try to start trusting people.

When i get so overly attached, i text the other party like no one business. Then when it comes to the most desperate point, you get depressed and often questioning yourself why are you caring so much? 

That point is when the other party seems to get annoyed, but you have no idea whether if it's true.

It seems like everyone is the same. After a while they just become bored of you and ended the conversation. Whereas you, who is so overly attached, fall into despair and get so emotionally hurt. It's just painful isn't it?

I just hate this kind of situation. I may not be your best friend or even your close friend. I'm just a friend of yours. If you can give so much time to close and best friends, why can't you at least spare some times for your friends *yes just friends*.

It has seems clear to me that everyone is just so selfish, arrogant and fucking self centered.

I hate to say this, but if you're saying that i'm judging you all, so be it. Because you have experience it before, and whether if you want to believe, that's your choice.

- Don't get too overly attached to someone. Who knows they might break their bonds with you and search for better bonds. - Desmond R.

Proud and Contented

Most of us heard about the recent controversy that involve the Miss Universe Singapore, Jesslyn Tan and one an unknown typical uncle on the train.

Apparently, we have not of heard of both parties' story yet. However, the uncle's daughter have apparently stepped up to confront the post by Ms Jesslyn Tan.

Of course, and obviously, the actions by Ms Tan have already shown that she is in line with our so called "judgemental society". We often call the society judgemental because they judge people based on their looks.  (and btw, i'm judging her right now, by her ACTIONS)

"Judge people by their actions, not their looks" - Desmond R.

In today context, we don't go around wearing shirts that are torn and with holes; since teens nowadays shown more support for looking good. (but hey, all of us want to look good sometimes, don't we?)

But when we stepped out of our comfort zones, out onto the streets, public transports etc, we do see some minimal amount of people who wear torn clothing. For example, some street performers may only have that one piece of perfect clothing. We never know. Or rather, there are some people who don't even have any tops.

So does that mean we can start judging and mocking someone who is topless? Mocking him/her that he/she is poor or he/she is in the new trend?


Stop it guys. Just because we live in a first world country, with high cost and standard of living, it doesn't mean that all of us rich.

 Some of us are poor. 

One thing great about being poor is that one will strive to work as much as possible to earn that amount of money that can last them a day, in the most humane way without betraying their conscience.

 There are many people who are just earning only about $2000 and under for a month. But when you think of those monthly expenses such as groceries, its appear that you will end up with a few hundred bucks. most of it will possibly end up in your savings.

 For a typical uncle who work at a stall, do you think he can still earn more than what we have after deducting all those expenses?

And just because he has some holes on his shirt, does not mean that one can mock him for being poor.

 I can be rich, but I can choose to wear a torn shirt. 

Thats the thing why society is unfair. Almost all of us judge people based on their looks.

And by the way, ever since the starting of this post, i have never judged Ms Tan based on her looks. She is pretty, and being a Ms Universe Singapore is already a wow-factor. She can even be a model or whatsoever.

But one thing she lack of is, the moral ethics of a human. One does not mock about people just because he/she is poor.

Who knows one day, all of will degrade to the same condition and situation where everyone is equal in every aspects. Money is just an instrument for various objectives. After all, we won't be bringing it into our grave after we pass away.

To be honest, my family is neither rich nor poor.

(and I believe that about 3/5 of the Singaporeans are in the same condition as my family)

Most of us live under the roof of a HDB flat. Some of us may have cars to drive to work, while some of us took buses and trains. We are never equal in some aspects. For example, there is this family of 6 who are relying on the mother, who is the sole breadwinner of the family. This mother of 4 may earn just only 1000 a month, but do you think it is enough to feed the whole family of 6?

It might not be enough to feed the whole family, but one thing sure is that, these tough times faced by the family brought them closer together.

For my family, whatever my parents earn are about just enough to feed the whole family of 4, with about probably 500bucks to spare for savings or anything else.

My mother is a just a typical government worker. (dude, she doesn't earn 5k a month. Just about 1k.)

And my father is just a typical odd-job worker for now. (earning about 30bucks a day)

We may not be rich, but we are not poor as well. We are just the your so called average-income family.  Or rather a middle class in Singapore, if there is.

Previously, when my father was a driver to deliver all those gas tanks in the morning, there were some people who asked me, "hey, what's your father's job/occupation?" .

I am never ashamed to tell everyone, my dad is a driver or even now, my dad is a typical odd-job worker.  

People who are ashamed of what your parents does for a living should really face the reality.  Money doesn't come by that easily.  Life can be difficult, but when we are willing to make the extra effort to be proud of what our parents does for a living, so that they feel motivated to earn more, then why not?

Just because that some of you out there are ashamed of what your parent does, it doesn't mean that you can ripped off them. Because they have been supporting you since you were born. From buying your diapers, your toys, whatever you want and even for some, paying for your education when you're already so abled.  They were using their money to support you.

Life can be tough and difficult, but do be reminded that whatever you received from your parents could be all that they have.  Feel contented.