26 March 2014
Overly Attachment
20 March 2014
Proud and Contented
Apparently, we have not of heard of both parties' story yet. However, the uncle's daughter have apparently stepped up to confront the post by Ms Jesslyn Tan.
Of course, and obviously, the actions by Ms Tan have already shown that she is in line with our so called "judgemental society". We often call the society judgemental because they judge people based on their looks. (and btw, i'm judging her right now, by her ACTIONS)
"Judge people by their actions, not their looks" - Desmond R.
In today context, we don't go around wearing shirts that are torn and with holes; since teens nowadays shown more support for looking good. (but hey, all of us want to look good sometimes, don't we?)
But when we stepped out of our comfort zones, out onto the streets, public transports etc, we do see some minimal amount of people who wear torn clothing. For example, some street performers may only have that one piece of perfect clothing. We never know. Or rather, there are some people who don't even have any tops.
So does that mean we can start judging and mocking someone who is topless? Mocking him/her that he/she is poor or he/she is in the new trend?
Stop it guys. Just because we live in a first world country, with high cost and standard of living, it doesn't mean that all of us rich.
One thing great about being poor is that one will strive to work as much as possible to earn that amount of money that can last them a day, in the most humane way without betraying their conscience.
There are many people who are just earning only about $2000 and under for a month. But when you think of those monthly expenses such as groceries, its appear that you will end up with a few hundred bucks. most of it will possibly end up in your savings.
For a typical uncle who work at a stall, do you think he can still earn more than what we have after deducting all those expenses?
And just because he has some holes on his shirt, does not mean that one can mock him for being poor.
I can be rich, but I can choose to wear a torn shirt.
And by the way, ever since the starting of this post, i have never judged Ms Tan based on her looks. She is pretty, and being a Ms Universe Singapore is already a wow-factor. She can even be a model or whatsoever.
But one thing she lack of is, the moral ethics of a human. One does not mock about people just because he/she is poor.
Who knows one day, all of will degrade to the same condition and situation where everyone is equal in every aspects. Money is just an instrument for various objectives. After all, we won't be bringing it into our grave after we pass away.
17 March 2014
Slowly fading away.
When was the last time that you ever trusted so much with your entire life? For me, it was years ago that i completely i trust someone. Ask me whether if I trust anyone now, and i would tell you "i dont trust anyone now". Perhaps, its just that I have trust issues.
I can't stand it when people says this and do that on the other hand. It just sucks. It's just like a promise being broken. People tends to have trust issues after going through a whole lot of betrays by their friends. And I'm not the only one.
I get betrayed and backstabbed by friends in the past and that doesnt mean i'll get 'attacked' by them again. It just suck. That word can represent what it feels like to have trust issues.
Honestly speaking, it hurts and pains me when i realise i dont trust anyone completely. Those things that i kept within myself are just evolving themselves into something darker and darker. It just make me less open to everyone. I'm literally hiding my real self from others. What they see me as is socialable, friendly etc. But they will never understand whatever that i've experience. It doesnt mean that they can judge me either. Its been a while since people ask me out.
All these while, i'm living in my own world, shutting everyone out of my inner world. Sometimes, i wish that i could get out of this dark world where i can't seem to even see a glimpse of hope.
I tried my very best to ask people out. Its not my fault for being like this.
I TRIED. But what can i expect to see.
Even when i invited people to my house for chinese new year, they said they're busy. What are you busy with? I've exams too. Don't give me excuses that you have exams and you need to study. Dont give me craps. And besides, I already let you guys know 1 month in advance.
And sometimes, when i attempt to 'book' people, they dont even reply. Screw those last seen. You're screwed because whatsapp gave you out.
A small part of me often remind myself not to be so annoyrd with them. They'll find time soon. But tell me, who will ask me out. And not forgetting that if they remember me ? And yes, i was back to my clique, ZEUS again. Guess what, only 2 persons replied me when I said something. Im not trying to say people are very busy, but hey, its been days and you're still busy?
I simply dont understand why. It probably just mean that you dont fucking welcome me. And hey, you forgotten what we said before. Before this, we have something call the baby group. Hello, those people who are inactive were eventually not added to our current group. So do you want to be the next? Probably, there wont be anymore next. it could be the worst and fucked up decision that i ever made to come back to the group.
Just so fuck up, all of you except those who replied. Oh do you still remember how to spell fuck up ? If you can put yourself into my shoes, you will understand why i would have so much trust issues to the extent that i really dont trust anyone completely.
12 March 2014
The Untold Truth
As i placed my McFlurry on the seat beside me, i begin to wonder, was the decision i made before the right one? Was i under influence of someone or something that made me feel so clear of what I am doing? There are a lot of questions i want to ask myself. But usually, it yield nothing.
I wish i could tell someone how i feel. But everytime when i approach someone, my lips and mouth became numb. My tongue seems to be super-glued by someone. I wish i could better face up to reality.
Just yesterday, i felt a kind of love. It wasn't the kind of love that we had for another partner. Its the kind of love which everyone come together work towards a common goal and getting job down. Yes, its teamwork in a group. But what it emit was the love of friendship, brotherhood as well as a team. I haven't felt this kind of love ever since i left the team.
I swear upon my grave that for the first time, this love felt so special. Special than anything.
Although I left the team, but there's still a part of me that want to be in the team. I just couldn't let it go.
Another part of me was filled with guilt. I feel so guilty of shirking away my responsibility, and putting so much stress and work on the others. Especially when a 6-person team have to do 7-person work. I just dont get what i was trying to do here. I asked myself, what have i been doing for the past half year?
"Have you ever regret the decision that you made?"
In the past, i would say no. But now, I really truly regret the fact that i made that decision.
That decision of mine affect many people, in terms of their life and so on. But when that decision was made, all the responsibility ended. It seems that it has ended. But apparently, it haven't. I got to face the result of it.
The aftermath. The real true feelings. The reality.
It has become a nightmare for me everynight.
Sometime, i just couldn't believe that i threw off my responsibility in order to chase after something that i want.
Which in fact, when i managed to get it, the feeling from those sacrifices I made are much overwhelming than the happiness of attaining my goal.
Honestly, i wish i can really do something about this.
"At the end of every tunnel, there always a light shining upon you." - Desmond R.
09 March 2014
Should we or should we not pay?
And i read through it. Honestly speaking, sometimes we wonder about this question.
If it's you who instigated the date. Just pay. Because it's you, that's why she came to a date with you.
Imagine when the girl looks at you, expecting you to pay when the bills come. You don't want to look pathetic when you can't seems to pay for the bill, do you? But most of us can pay since it's the 21st Century as we have our debit and credit card ready for swiping.
Well, that brings us to our next point.
2. Impression of You.
Well, when we pay for the ladies, it does not only just show that we are gentlemen. It also shows that we have the responsibility, steady and well established. Some women are like this, they would think whether you are relationship-ready or not. And it also shows your sincerity in asking her out for a date. You won't want to ruin her impression of you by not paying anyway. After all, if you're aiming to go after her, your impression must be good. A girl won't want to have a boyfriend that is selfish, petty and doesn't take the initiative.
3. Special Occasions
If you asked her out because it's a special occasion like her birthday or her achievements, then yes, you should offer to pay. It will make you look classy and gracious. Just don't let her know about the price of the meal since i'm expecting you to bring her to a classy restaurant or hotel for a meal. Tell her it's on you.
4. She's testing you!
There are different ways of testing you. Always take note, lady can be very crafty. No offence but yes. For example, she can offer to pay for you. But take note, not all ladies are doing this for no reasons. Whether if she is doing it subconsciously or not, it really test how you are going to react. Sounds harsh.
Always remember, on the first date, she is trying to know about you. What kind and type of guys are you? Are you generous? Are you responsible?
06 March 2014
Those Sleepless Nights' thoughts.
1. You woke too late and trying to sleep early
2. You have something in mind that you dont even have a clue about.
3. You're troubling over something.
Honestly, i spent most of my sleepless night trying to think of solutions. Which only a few work.
I lied to myself and them, and said no. I dont even regret it because I gave up to search for and chase after better dreams.
01 March 2014
Sympathy and Attention
Yes, it do show that they care from the outside.
But how many of them are actually concerned about your well-being?
Just because they're asking these questions, it doesn't mean they actually care about you.
Probably they just feel that there's a need to.
But tell me, how many are there who are willing to offer you a listening ear and their time to listen to all of your craps and nonsense?
Honestly speaking. Really honest. I really wished there are people who insist on asking or probe more when i said i'm fine, i'm alright. Perhaps that's just what us, humans need.
Sympathy & Attention.
Ask yourself this, have you never ever thought of gaining the attention of others in order for them to better understand us? Or just gaining the attention because you just want to be famous?
Face the reality, all of us wants attention from people around us.
Sometimes, it really set me thinking. Why are these people asking me whether if i'm alright and then when i said not really, they just said, everything is going to be alright.
I mean, you don't even know what happened, and you're telling me everything is going to be alright?
Yes, it is certainly that everything is going to be alright, but have you ever thought of giving advices and some support?
Have you ever thought of providing someone the best listening ear you have?
And there are really a lot of people out there thinking that trying to gain sympathy/attention is a ridiculous thing.
They just go "wa this bitch trying to gain attention because she chio"
Hello? Just because she's pretty and you're saying that she's a bitch? Why not look at yourself in the mirror before judging others? Are you better compared to her?
And just because she is pretty, you're saying she's gaining attention?
It's like that person practically made the issue of gaining attention a ridiculous and something that is unwanted.
But, have that person ever thought of watching himself/herself making that comment?
From my point of view, I would definitely say that comment was very ridiculous and unwanted.
Ask ourselves this, have we ever wanted to gain attention and sympathy from others?
I believe everyone does it in the past, now and then.
For example, you're sad. You don't just hide one corner and cry alone don't you?
It's more like,
1. You cry.
2. Stop crying halfway then tweet "i'm crying so hard now" , "why did this happened?"
3. Go back crying again.
4. Check replies from your followers
And if you were to ask me, whether i did it before. Yes, i did it.
Everyone, at some point in life, want to gain attention and sympathy.
So, give attention and sympathy to someone who really needs it, especially those who are down.
Stop making those ridiculous comments because it's not going to help.