7 things I am afraid of during Childhood (and now)

Okay, so i haven't been posting stuffs recently on this space and it's kinda sad to leave it dangling like this. So i thought why not do a post that relates to childhood. I often get people saying how great their childhood has been. As much as childhood is being concerned, i have very minimal amount of memories about it. I have no idea why too. 

Fear is something that exist in our heart and mind today. But our fear nowadays are more complicated and realistic than what we experienced during the first few years of our life.

Our current fears range from failing a test to even things like our smartphone exploding in the middle of charging (Yes, sometimes i really hope it doesn't when i'm talking on the phone).

So here goes my 7 childhood fears...

1. Darkness

Firstly, this is something that most of us are scared of during our early days. We are afraid of the dark because we thought and/or imagined that there are creatures crawling around in the dark. And sometimes, we even imagine that these 'creatures' crawled onto our bed and try to devour us alive. (ain't gonna happen anyway).

I slept with my study light on in the past.

Current Status: Overcame

2. Height

I have a guess that everyone is afraid of this.

Height is indeed something that even an adult should be afraid of. Don't even mention a child. When I was a child, my balls wasn't as big as currently. Therefore, I would refuse to even get near the window. Okay, honestly speaking, my previous house was only at the 3rd floor. It wasn't that high though. But nonetheless, imagine falling down from the enormous height. I'm speechless. 

Status: Overcame

3. Megastructures

The first thing that comes to your mind when megastructures is mentioned would be a ship or even an aircraft. Have you ever wonder how small you will be like when compared to those structures? 

It's as if that those structures can devour you alive! The thought of those megastructures can make me pee in my pants in the past!

Status: Overcame

4. Sunflower

Oh my goodness. You will have a hard time believing that I actually fear for sunflower!? It's like a beautiful thing yet I'm so afraid of it in the past.

I could even remember that my impression of sunflowers is that it's monstrous. I was so scared in the past that I will 'siam' as much as possible. But now, I see beauty in it. 

Status: Overcame

5. Water

Seriously, water?! Hahah, this is really unbelievable. We are in touch with water 24/7 and having 70% of our body filled with water, and yet, I'm afraid of water in the past. It's sounds so nonsensical to me now. 

Let me rephrase, a POOL of water. As in the swimming pool kind. hahaha. 

This fear wasn't a natural occurrence but actually a 'man-made' fear. You must be confused. I didn't have this fear until I was about 7/8 years old? I was going through swimming classes every saturday at Tampines Swimming Complex. And apparently, this coach of mine forcefully pushed my entire body into the water and let me come up only after 1 minute. I swear I almost drowned. 

It was a frightening event and ever since then I didn't get near a swimming pool until I was in Secondary 1, which I have swimming classes by the school. 

Status: Overcame

6. Horror Movies

Tell me, do you cuddle yourself in the blanket on your bed after watching the entire horror film at midnight?! 

Yup precisely, it still make my hair stands when mentioning about horror movies. Sometimes, I still use my sofa cushion to avoid any eye contact with the TV. 

Status: Partially Overcome

7. Durians

Okay, this is my worst fear ever. 

The smell... Damn it already set me 1 mile away from it. 

I wonder how i survived breathing those smells. 

Status: Still Pending (I just got my 1st bite months back then)

9 Reasons that cause people to explode

These reasons are based on my experiences. There are other reasons out there that varies from person to person and my reasons may not apply to you.

Oh well, guess what. I just exploded. Those feelings, no matter how much you try to mask it, always burst when you least expected it. You have never thought that even the slightest thing will cause you to explode. But, that's what happened.

9 Types of Reasons that cause you to explode

1. Hidden Feelings
First and foremost, there must be a container of fuel to ignite a fire with a spark. Of course, this 'fuel' is the feelings we intend to hide from others.  All of us have feelings, and I can relatively estimate that we hide 8/10 of our feelings from others.

Hidden feelings can include frustrations, love life, and even adapting to some environment. These environments may not be new and it could be somewhat familiar to you, but it just doesn't click with you.

So hidden feelings are the first thing that put your mind to a somewhat insecure situation.

2. No One to talk to
Yes, hidden feelings are to be hidden. But don't you hate it, at some point in time, that you really wish to talk to someone about it and there's no one you can trust to tell about it?

Yeah, I understand that. Most of us underwent through it. But somehow, a number of us managed to find someone to speak about it. It like a burden of their chest and back. It must be a great feeling.

So what about the rest of us? We don't just only continue hiding and masking their feelings. In fact, we end up hiding one more fact.  Trying to tell ourselves that someone cares about us and will realise how fragile we are. Unfortunately, no one came to our rescue.  That hidden fact is that there are not a single soul whom we trust.

3. Frustration
After lying to ourselves that someone trustable will be here soon, and realising that there's no hope and high expectations anymore, we fall into the state of frustration.

We try to figure out what are the reasons that no one whom we can trust can offer us a hand. We tried to figure out and nothing came out from our mind. NOTHING.

Perhaps, sometimes there are stupid assumptions. Like for example, this person actually don't give a damn about me.

4. Stress
Meet our great and best friend in our life, his name is stress. This stress cause you to have pimple outbreaks etc.

But don't you hate it so much that when you're stress, even the slightest thing annoys you? For instance, a bloody tissue paper that got blown by the wind.

Yup, you know that feeling. You feel like grabbing that tissue paper and throw it down the building.  #nokillerlitterplease.

5. Repetition of the Radio
Yup, it seems that your 'radio' is on a replay mode. Perhaps you might wanna do something about it.

Don't you get so ANNOYED when people just keep harping it non stop? They repeat it again and again that you feel like a little child?

Its so annoying. Why repeat again and again. Stop talking about it when its already in the past.

It called PAST for a reason.  *change to pause*

6. People who purposely try to agitate you
Yup, this people are the most evil kind of bastard and bitches.  They tries to agitate you and when you finally exploded, its your fucking fault.

They come up with all sort of words and sarcasm to try to pull you down.

Tolerance level needed: GOD level
Percentage of population exploded: 98.0%

7. The MotherFucking Weather
Currently is around 27 Deg Cel at night. But fuck, its like god damn 34 Deg Cel in the day. I swear it feel like a sauna.

Are you trying to get down to work? Forget it, this weather is a killer. Even the slightest move you take makes you explode.

8. Cranky Mode
Imagine this, you just woke up and feeling so cranky. I swear that the worst feeling you ever have in your entire life. You wish you can sleep more, but its time you should get up and prepare for whatever that is ahead.

And then, you're so cranky that even the moving ants make you explode.
(Then the entire world will explode too)

9. All of the Above
Mix everything stated above and you'll get the damn big bang of the universe.