Deprived.

Many people are constantly deprived of sleep, money, energy and so on...

Personally, I feel that the things that i'm deprived of depends on the situation itself.

For instance, if one rushes projects in exchange for his/her sleep time, then that will be counted as deprivation of sleep and energy as well.

But I would rather be in that situation than be deprived of something in a long term period.

Perhaps, there isn't any cure for this. I'm constantly depriving of friends. Like i mention two posts before, I feels as if i'm a burden to my friends, to the fact that i even push them out of my life at certain point.

The logic "I have only myself to count on" seems to be true.  Sometimes, you feel better when you're alone. You get to enjoy every single moment of being with yourself, thinking of many stuffs that you want to make it happen or maybe you're even daydreaming.

But, suddenly, the thought of being alone startled you...

The fear of falling from a height that you scaled halfway towards what you're thinking.

And apparently, that height refers to the point where friends come in.

This point is the encouragement point. Whenever we drive ourselves towards a certain goal, wanting to make it happen, we often find ourselves stuck at that particular point. Because that's the maximum point that you can reach, alone. 

We couldn't reach our destination alone, without the support of our friends.

So why am i constantly deprive of friends?! Do i have a goal to achieve or something? 

There are times when I feel so aimless. 

Perhaps, i just need a person whom i recently encounter to confide in. 

I tend to think and worry about small little things that often relates to how i feel exactly. 

But then i thought, what is the possibility of getting people to stay when they already know you story? Majority will stay, because they wish to hear your problems.

But those who leave? Mainly because they got tired of you.

Update 1:

How many times have i heard of people telling their friends, "Hey, this is my best friend, Desmond" ?

I can easily count that with my 2 hands. I can often be a close friends to others, but when i said that this person is the best of the best friend. I seriously mean it. 

But do I actually expect that same person to treat me like how i treated him/her? 

Yes, i do expect that to happen. Given the conditions for me to treat that person like this, I would expect that that person have all kinds of reasons and conditions to treat me likewise.

I do understand that some of you may disagree to what I'm saying, but in the real world. We do expect people to treat us like how we treated them, don't we?

But the higher the expectations, the painful it is.

Back to that festive period...

Yes, it's finally back to that period of time when people starts to scramble island-wide searching for clothes for the festive period, Chinese New Year (which is round the corner).  Honestly, I can't wait for that to come, and come to think of it, ITS ONLY TWO DAYS AWAY.

My goodness, and I'm still gonna do some last minut shopping tomorrow or something, provided if I have time. Like I said in my previous post, although this festive period is going to be a happy and good one, there's still projects and presentations due. Worst still, there's make up lessons.

Enough of that. I believe all of you have shown your friends about what's inside the Chinese New Year haul that you have there!

Well, I haven't get a chance to showcase it here since I'm really really really very busy....

So let me start off with the Bangkok haul. Well these clothings were bought by my sister because I haven't get a chance to visit Bangkok yet. But I must say that those are really nice clothing's.

Bangkok Haul:

 

There's two more, but i picked out these 3 that i felt that they are the best among all.

Abercrombie & Fitch

Bought it online as a bulk purchase from the official A&F website. This was a gift that my sister bought it for me out of goodwill. Lol. (Perhaps this was for exchange with the musical box i gave her before)  Besides, this is my first A&F shirt!!

Aeropostale

 

I bought this shirt a long time ago (is 4 months counted as long enough?) and i didn't wear it since then, it's like still new, and apparently it make its way to part of my CNY haul. 

Bought it for SGD25. (Retail Price: SGD49.90)

Uniqlo

 

Uniqlo is, perhaps, one of my biggest sources for my clothing in my wardrobe currently. I can easily estimate that there are at least 30 clothing in my wardrobe are from Uniqlo. I'm not really a big fan of Uniqlo though (irony?). Perhaps, it's just their style of clothes really matches my ideal style.

The first picture above is actually a blue polka dots long sleeve shirt, retailing at SGD29.90.

I managed to get it around SGD20.90 due to employee discount. I wanted this white colour more than  the blue colour variant. Reason being that if i were to wear this blue colour variant of the shirt with JEANS, can you expect how it will be like on me?

It will be like from top to bottom, blue?

Next is the jeans, this jeans is slightly different from the normal kinds of jeans (which is rougher).

This is called leggings jean if you haven't heard of it. The material used is really very thin and it's allow your skins to breathe through. It's also flexible.  This is my 2nd piece already, and i think i'm gonna prefer this type jean for quite some time though.

(Retailing at SGD29.90)

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Shoes

This is my first time getting a Lee Cooper products, and the quality seems great as well.

I prefer this shoes because of it's unique texture and i long wanted to get a high cut shoes.

Converse and Dr Martens was actually in my list and i have never considered shoes from Lee Cooper.

Apparently, i got this from OG Albert at SGD63.90, retailing at SGD79.90 though. 

 Socks

My demand for socks is really damn high. My supply of socks in my wardrobe is like reaching all life time low or something. And i thought of getting some socks to prep me up with Chinese New Year.

These 3 pairs of socks, again, is bought from Uniqlo. 

Retailing at SGD14.90 for 3 pairs, bought at SGD10.45 thanks to employee discount.

Total Spending: S$150.15 (excl. gifts)

I guess that about it for now, I'll be doing some last minute shopping tomorrow at Tampines 1 and I really hope I get something from Springfield. If i ever get something tomorrow, I'll update this space here so, Bless me with better luck!

Have a great Chinese New Year ahead guise!

In a Nutshell

It's Midweek again!

Exactly two more days to Friday.

Apparently, I'm only having 4pm lessons for today and tomorrow.

Can you believe it? Going for lessons that only lasts 2 hours long?!

Yup, poly students, i feel your sorrow.

Thank goodness I'm going to have project meeting today at 1pm.

It was supposed to be an accounting lesson, but it was bad luck that the tutor actually cancelled the lesson due to certain matter.  Some of you reading this may think why is it bad luck when I don't have class? 

Well, here's the answer. When's there no classes, either due to public holiday or certain reasons, there will be a MAKE-UP lesson. Honestly, I really hate that. These lessons usually take place in the evening or maybe on a saturday. Because it's really very hard to find time to accommodate all the students and the teacher.  And this is the worst case scenario because this few weeks will be around the Chinese New Year period and make up lessons are getting more.

Argh. That's annoying.

But here's another better thing.

In just 8-9 days, it will be Chinese New Year. So I'll be travelling to Malaysia on the 30th or the 31st depending on the traffic conditions and whether our schedule allow. (On a side note, my class on the 30th is cancelled, and there won't be any make up lesson. HOORAY)

So on the Chinese New Year eve, I'll be attending the Chinese New Year Celebration at my Alma Mater, Greendale Sec.  As much as you guys know, I've been going back quite a number of times last year, and this will be my fourth visit for this January alone. Gosh, can you believe I'm so committed.

Okay, maybe not. 

Just last Saturday, I went back for an Alumni Exco meeting and, do you know that our alumni meeting is to be scheduled on the 3rd Saturday of every month? haha, that's our new schedule. 

It makes my schedule of events neater and better.

Anyway, talking about events and schedules,  this few weeks is so hectic. Plenty of project submissions and presentations, thank goodness I've only one left.

Because of all this stuffs, i have to turn down some part time jobs. There goes my opportunity.

Although there's one more left, it kinda sucks because my last presentation will be held on 3rd Feb, which is immediately after Chinese New Year.  

I tried persuading the teacher to postpone the date, and she apparently told me postpone until exams ah?!  I was like alright fine. And great, because 3rd Feb is the first day of DPA PPP (if i'm not wrong), and i'm one of the Group leader of the empire. I'm gonna miss out lessons again.

See, back to the first point, more and more make up lessons.

Friends, Does it matters?

Usually, i don't really bother about the fact that I have too much friends or in another words, being too social. But just once in a while, there's this feeling that I always felt it was so uncommon, much more like a feeling never encountered before.

This feeling is the feeling of loneliness.

Can you believe it? A person who is so sociable has a moment of loneliness? I can't believe it either.

It's so irony. How could I feel lonely when there's friends around me? Honestly speaking, it's either i'm starting to drift from ALL my friends or maybe it's just that im being paranoid. Sadly to say that it is definitely me drifting away from them.

I believe most of you reading this felt the same too, at some point in life.

You met this particular person and find that you're very comfortable with this person. You get close with him/her for a while and then out of a sudden, both of you are back to being stranger. Maybe stranger isn't the right word to use; but aquaintence ? That sounds more appropriate.

"Real friends are better to keep than fake friends"

Yes, all of us heard about this many times before, but im just gonna ask you this.

But what do we exactly mean by REAL friends?

- one who stay by your side and providing a listening ear ONLY when you're feeling the worst moment ?

OR MAYBE

- one who constantly keep in touch with you, stay by your side, providing you a listening ear, giving advice and tips on your relationship and other issues, regardless of how you're feeling ?

Im confused with this question too.

But i just got to say that the process of meeting this person, getting close with him/her, sharing your problems with him/her and out of a sudden, you lose this friendship to aquaintence, that is purely BULLSHIT.

Rather, i would deem that losing a long-known friend whom you thought who is real to you is the most painful thing ever. It's like losing your girlfriend, just that this 'girlfriend' don't love you (wholeheartedly).

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The important thing is that, which you might not even know, that person didn't actually leave you.

You lost those friends because you shut everyone out of your life, only keeping those who you want to be with.

I got to be honest with all of you. Despite being a social person who is quite independent in a sense, i always feel desperate for company. Even after making more friends, im got so fed up with myself because its either i feel so uncomfortable with them or felt as if im a big burden to them.

I never failed to exclude people out of my life nowadays. I have tried to be close with people that i was once close with. However, this bad side of me always appear and forcefully shut them out. It's like I don't even want to have any link with them.

I really wish i could be much more better.

Dreams

Inspired by dreams that i have these few nights, i decided to do an entry about dreams.

I believe everyone at least have a dream in their lifetime.

Whatever kind of dream. Dreaming about your future or maybe some fictional issues. 

So what exactly is dreams? 

Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.

Image from http://www.scienceofrelationships.com/home/2013/7/3/wake-up-dreams-and-relationships-part-1-of-2.html

I'm not gonna talk about those dreams that i had while sleeping for these few nights, although the dreams was really cool. I'm just going to mention about another kind of dream (NOT DAYDREAMING THOUGH) that all of us have. Our dream of what we want to do in the future.

While I was young, my dream was to be a media person. If i didn't remember wrongly, i only started to have a dream when I was in Primary 2 or 3. I'm not really like others who even dreamed to be a firefighter or whatever just because that they were inspired by cartoons or action films. 

I mean, all of us are quite naive during childhood. We tend to think simple and never consider thinking deeper and further into our thoughts. Just by telling your parents, "I want to be a firefighter/police" , doesn't mean you really get to be. 

I remember there was a time that my parents brought me to one of their friends' house at Toa Payoh. I can't remember how old was I, but I'm very very young. The important thing is that i actually tried to be like a policemen because i found a handcuff toy in the house. Gosh what was i doing?! (I can't believe i still remember though) And the funny thing is that, I used the handcuff and trying cuffing my dad up. Hahaha, and I can't cuff him because 

1. His wrist were to big , 

2. It's called a toy for a reason.

I think that was the only occurrence that it somehow relate to the trend at that time though.

So what did i really refer to by saying "media person"?

I was actually referring to being a producer, cameramen or even a director.

Basically, it's just any career that is related to the mass media.

I guess I really like being a media person that I even got into my Secondary School CCA, Greendale Broadcasting Corporation. 

This CCA really relate to my dream a lot. and not to mention that this dream of mine went on for a few years since primary school. 

It really satisfies my dreams. I have never failed to always think about how a certain part of a drama was filmed. Behind each scene are those cameramen, director, producers and so on. Although this is part of my interest and dream, i feel that all of us should appreciate how a film is being produced. 

From being able to direct my own mini film to adjusting the sounds as well as controlling the amount light to be taken in for a photo to be produced, I honestly think that it is the best dream that i ever have.

 

I'm pretty much satisfied with my dream of being a media person. A dream might not be career, it could be an interest.

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At the age of 15 (and a half), my dream took another course. I ventured into the world of accounting, and since then, i tried to excel in every accounting test. But i guess, that would be too enclosed. What we should be exposed is the open and realistic world. Getting full marks or A in every accounting test isn't a very good gauge. Because of this as well as my interest, I decided to go for Diploma in Accounting and Finance in Temasek Polytechnic. 

Initially, I was more interested in Mass Communication in Ngee Ann Polytechnic because of my dream previously. However, accounting proved that it's able to capture my curiosity and interest, therefore I am here in Temasek Polytechnic now.

My current dream is to become an accountant (or maybe an auditor). But i'll prefer being an accountant though. Whereas, being a media person actually became a real interest and hobby. I have a lot of interests though but the main two interests will be media as well as leadership.

Image from http://go.christiansteven.com/blog/bid/228986/Business-Intelligence-for-Accounting

Of course, when we speak of dream, obviously sometimes all of us will daydream on something that is impossible to reach. But if a dream can be achieve, just go for it. 

"Take initiative because it's your life, don't be discouraged because of people who tries to bring you down."  --  Desmond R.

Midweek!

It's finally here!

Image from http://androidandme.com/tag/midweek-madness/

Although it isn't friday yet, but school has been fun (really?) up till now!

Managed to see my friends after the holidays as well as getting back all my tests results.

I guess all of you feels nervous when getting back your result, don't you?

I'm really glad that i'm doing well for my tests and I'm probably on my way to attain 3.80 GPA!

But there's still a CGPA....

Nevermind, currently, i'm just praying that i'll be able to ace my macro economics test so that it's a straight As for all my MidSem Test! 

It's really crazy and surprising to think that you'll get a good result. But after all, it's your own effort and definitely, you will feel proud of yourself! :)

Anyway, Jiaying and I went back to my alma mater yesterday to discuss with Ms Kerry Lim about the Alumni Card proposal and she really really managed to provide a lot of feedback, in which i think it's GREAT INFORMATION.  Of course, we still have a little bit of problems trying to get into the school because it's like maximum security. But still, we managed to get in and meet up with her. 

I'm really glad that life for everyone is pretty good, and teachers are getting busier and busier. Probably because we came at the school dismissal timing. HAHA

Side tracking a little bit, Ms Kerry Lim is taking over the alumni as a teacher advisor and i'm really glad to have her here with us. I think the alumni will be much more better than before (not saying that it wasn't very good before though).

Oh yes, for those alumnus who are reading this post, there will be a campfire tomorrow night (8 Jan 2014) from 7pm to 9pm. The location is at:

Greendale Secondary School

51 Edgedale Plains, Singapore 828866

(hopefully you still know how to get there)

Please let me know via twitter (@21december_) direct message if you're coming!

"What you receive is determined by the amount of effort you put in" - Ms K. Lim

This was the best motivational quote i ever heard, and i remember it vividly.

Selfish

A lot of you may have heard of or maybe in certain situation whereby people are just way too selfish.

Personally, I have come across people who are VERY selfish. I don't understand what up in their brains.  Grass probably?

Can you imagine yourself in a situation when you're so desperate for an answer and yet, the one who has the answer is so selfish and unwilling to do you a favour?  I mean it's just a favour, you're not even asking for his/her life. 

So here's the complicated thing, does this mean that by sharing the answer means you're copying one's work?

In my view, it's an obviously no. It's called a project for a reason. By sharing the answer, I may or may not get the solution to the answer.  But as long as I know the answer and come up with the solutions myself, that's not even plagiarism.

So the answer to this complicated thing is, sharing your answer doesn't mean plagiarism.

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Being in this course is way too tough + competitive. I just submitted my project work that was due today at 6pm. This project is way too much. From recording the transactions to etc etc. I don't even think you guys know what these jargons are. So forget it. 

The important point is that throughout the project, we had some problems to get the right answer. That's why we require some help. So of course, we did ask.  We called, we texted.

And one or two people said they can get the right answer but nope, they're not telling the answer.

That's what i call, selfish. 

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So the next time I face this situation or this kind of people, I'll just ignore. I can't possibly come up to my blog and talk about them, don't you think so?

Blissful 2014

Everyone is just saying "hey, it's 2014. Day 1 out of 365!"

That's like a nah nah to me. I'm gonna start 2014 like a boom and bang.

Believe me, 2014 will be just like 2013.

It's gonna be like a flash bang and zoom past me.

So we are left with less than 2 hour of the first day of 2014.

Relax, there's another 364 days to go.

Chill. No one is gonna complete their new year resolution by today.

(unless those with simple resolution, that will be too absurd)

Anyway, the photo up there was my last Outfit of the Night for 2013 if you saw that up on my instagram. Yesterday was a great night. Although I wasn't really partying, being with my friends during new year countdown is definitely a one in a lifetime experience.

(yes, that's my first time. Virgin try. I rarely celebrate new year though.)

I was at the vicinity around Singapore Flyer yesterday, counting down for 2014.

BUT NEVER ONCE I HEARD ANY COUNTDOWN.

The fireworks just went boom bang boom bang without warning.

But nevertheless, I managed to catch some great fireworks despite that thick amount of smoke that was resulted from it.

(Shot with a Nikon D90 with 18-105mm Lens at Marina Bay during 2014 Countdown)

I did managed to take quite a number of photos but thanks to my "prefer always perfect photo" attitude, i guessed i just threw those imperfection into the trash.

Obviously i got thank this two guys who made my countdown to 2014 possible.

I was very reluctant to go for countdown yesterday because of the change airport photoshoot on the previous day as well as the aftereffects of going out to farrerpark/lavender/dhobyghaut on the same day to carry out some errands.

Yesterday was definitely one of my tired days that i managed to sleep soundly from 2am till 1pm today. I didn't have such sound sleep for a long time, and not mentioning that i managed to sleep beyond 12pm. 

(i don't do that all the time, that's why i'm not a pig alright.)

And definitely, i prepared my new year resolution for 2014.

2014 will be a challenge though!

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2014 New Year Resolution

1. Turning 18 with the company of my friends and family
2. Spend quality time with my family
3. Make more friends and be more social
4. Save at least $3000 
5. Overseas trip to Korea/Thailand/Taiwan/Hongkong/Australia
6. Excel in my studies with at least a GPA of 3.80
7. Keeping my blog alive and moving
8. Running a 10km Marathon just under an hour
9. Finding someone who i truly love

"The days ahead may be blur, but one thing for sure that, it is beautiful."